The 3-legged chair

Grace. Connection. Hope.

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After months of mantra chanting and invocation to the deities, one day I finally gave up. I took refuge to my only solution, Sai Baba and my other spirit guides. I said the prayer, sat for my own Akashic Reading and almost in a crying like state, I asked Baba “What is happening in my life? I feel stuck, as if nothing is moving in my life. It’s static. How come is it like that when You, the king of this universe, is with me all the time guiding me?”

Sai Baba, in His usual way chuckled and said “Beta, What’s up? Why you so hassled when we have already told you it’s in the works. I will grant it to you when the time is right. What’s this disappointment and hopelessness?”

Let’s get a perspective on this. I had some wishes(materialistic) which Baba had said would be fulfilled in due time. He had given me some mantras to chant for a certain period. This was a usual thing, the only difference being, this time Baba had asked me to keep chanting till He asked me to stop. So, no timeline was given. This was the first time, something took so long, to be given by Him. I chanted the mantra for 8-9 months. Nothing showed up. Frustrated I connected with Him and asked “What’s happening? Why the delay?” to which, He replied the above.

Now, let me continue the rest of the conversation. Baba said “What’s the disappointment and hopelessness?” There was no sign of worry or angst on His face. There never is. He is always chill and when His face is serious or firm (has happened only 3-4 times in 4.5 years), that means something is gravely wrong. I continued” Baba, enough is enough, don’t you feel anything for me? It feels like the world is moving and I am still, stuck. I don’t know. I don’t like this feeling.”

Baba said “Do you trust me?”

“Yes, but…”

“But what? Either you trust or you don’t. There’s no place for ifs and buts.” He chuckled again.

I said “Baba, I love you but this is taking too long.”

Baba said “Beta, there are things that are unimaginable and unfathomable for human minds. I am working on those things. Please bear with me.”

Half-hearted, I ended the conversation with “Ok.”

I went on with my day. With little hope, I retired to bed. That night I had a dream. I saw a chair with 3 legs. But that chair didn’t fall. It was in its upright position. In the dream, I wondered what’s happening. As I circumferenced the chair and reached near the lost leg, a new scene opened up. It was like I entered another layer of consciousness. I saw a man working on the 4^th leg.

The background work

 He was a carpenter, knew his job perfectly well and with one pointedness, he was working with his tools on the 4^th leg. I asked him “what’s going on?” He said “the 4^th leg needs to be prepared soon, then the chair will be complete.” I wondered, why is a person not able to see the ongoing work from the front? From the front, it looked like that the chair is upright on 3 legs miraculously. When one got close, is when one would know, the final leg was getting prepared. In the dream, I said “Ah! The background work is going on.” As soon as I realised this, the dream ended. The next morning, I woke up with a certain degree of calmness. I thanked Baba that He had, again, worked His charm in making me feel ok and hopeful. That dream was Baba’s present to me. It was about the background work that He said, was going on. He was working on the 4^th leg.

I was still not fully satisfied, with the question lingering in my mind “how much time for the 4^th leg?” Hehe. But I was calm enough to continue the chanting of mantras and guess what! After a while, I stopped asking when. I started trusting Him and His process. I understood that divine’s ways can’t be comprehended with mind. One has to go deep within to fathom how they work. As for my wish, it’s still in preparation mode, I guess. But for Baba’s wish for me, I got something much greater than what I had asked for. Will write about it someday. For now, chao! Take care lovelies.